I am sorry my friend... today i cant be my normal self... Feeling really v down today... difficult to explain y i feeling tt way...too many things happened at one time...
First, i having some problems with my hall.. when the bill came last fri.. i was shocked with the bill... Wat orientation t shirt and year book... I din receive the orientation t shirt as i din go for their orientation... Cant blame me for tt coz their orientation is on 19th to 21st july where i check in on 22nd of july... moreover i really din expect living in hall need to pay for so many things... thinking back i think pgp is better... at least i can cook myself and i need not pay for so many things... Next... The meals plan... come on lor.. the meals there got onion and garlic one... and i request for partial refund.. i din request for full.. and they refused... den i told them whether can they talk the caterer abt this.. wat they tell me? They say if u can find more vegetarian like u.. we will tell the caterer. But now only me cannot eat onion and garlic... they told me.. if not u withdraw from hall lor... i was like huh... else i need to pay tt $500++ w/o eating their meals...$500++ lor... not a small sum of money... therefore i went to osa there and told them abt my situation.. den they suggest me to change to residences...i filled up a form.. and they told me to wait for reply.. will give me a reply by this week.. ok.. i wait lor.. but den when i walked back to soc..i was in a dilemma... haizzz... RH is nt bad... but den.. the lizards there made me quite disgusted...haizz.. wat shld i do... i dunno...My mother actually called me earlier to ask me abt the hostel bills... and asked me wther can i dun stay... i am really in dilemma... I live in Pasir ris lehzz... travelling wasted alot of times... and i cant study at home.. no mood to study.... haizzz... dunno la...
Next thing is tt i did some reflection on myself... how is my working attitude? is it tt bad? i was actually quite down for the past few weeks.. but today it reached to the very bottom.. and difficult to raise up again... for the past 1 year in focc... i felt attached to comp club.. but now.. i think i dun belong there anymore... everything changes... MCs change... even the arrangement in comp club changed... am i really tt bad... am i?? i admit tt i am bad as a Matric Fair IC... I admit tt i am also bad in FOw treasurer...i dunno... i really dunno... hurt when i had conflict with mark in fow... but den when seeing my results in MF.. i felt happy but recalling tt day... i was totally collapsed after the MF... in total exhausted mode.. i wan to thank all the helpers in MF.. but till now.. i haven got a chance to thank them... maybe i shld do something.. haizz.. as FOW treasurer.. i not good in everything... money is a v sensitive issue.. i always in a careful mode... but den again.... i think i did a lots of mistakes... In qsn.. i failed to lead my BY...Am i really tt bad in my working attitude tt no one wan to work with me??? am i?? prehaps i really nt a good leader... prehaps i am nt a good player too...prehaps i am not good in managing stuffs...can anyone tell me???? i really feel like crying now.. but yet.. i dunno y i wan to cry... can anyone provide me the reason???
P.S to all my readers of this blog.. hope tt u all will nt get shocked of my post.. is juz me feeling v down.. and vent my feeling on this post.. dun worry abt me.. i will be fine after i finish this post and calm down a while...
First, i having some problems with my hall.. when the bill came last fri.. i was shocked with the bill... Wat orientation t shirt and year book... I din receive the orientation t shirt as i din go for their orientation... Cant blame me for tt coz their orientation is on 19th to 21st july where i check in on 22nd of july... moreover i really din expect living in hall need to pay for so many things... thinking back i think pgp is better... at least i can cook myself and i need not pay for so many things... Next... The meals plan... come on lor.. the meals there got onion and garlic one... and i request for partial refund.. i din request for full.. and they refused... den i told them whether can they talk the caterer abt this.. wat they tell me? They say if u can find more vegetarian like u.. we will tell the caterer. But now only me cannot eat onion and garlic... they told me.. if not u withdraw from hall lor... i was like huh... else i need to pay tt $500++ w/o eating their meals...$500++ lor... not a small sum of money... therefore i went to osa there and told them abt my situation.. den they suggest me to change to residences...i filled up a form.. and they told me to wait for reply.. will give me a reply by this week.. ok.. i wait lor.. but den when i walked back to soc..i was in a dilemma... haizzz... RH is nt bad... but den.. the lizards there made me quite disgusted...haizz.. wat shld i do... i dunno...My mother actually called me earlier to ask me abt the hostel bills... and asked me wther can i dun stay... i am really in dilemma... I live in Pasir ris lehzz... travelling wasted alot of times... and i cant study at home.. no mood to study.... haizzz... dunno la...
Next thing is tt i did some reflection on myself... how is my working attitude? is it tt bad? i was actually quite down for the past few weeks.. but today it reached to the very bottom.. and difficult to raise up again... for the past 1 year in focc... i felt attached to comp club.. but now.. i think i dun belong there anymore... everything changes... MCs change... even the arrangement in comp club changed... am i really tt bad... am i?? i admit tt i am bad as a Matric Fair IC... I admit tt i am also bad in FOw treasurer...i dunno... i really dunno... hurt when i had conflict with mark in fow... but den when seeing my results in MF.. i felt happy but recalling tt day... i was totally collapsed after the MF... in total exhausted mode.. i wan to thank all the helpers in MF.. but till now.. i haven got a chance to thank them... maybe i shld do something.. haizz.. as FOW treasurer.. i not good in everything... money is a v sensitive issue.. i always in a careful mode... but den again.... i think i did a lots of mistakes... In qsn.. i failed to lead my BY...Am i really tt bad in my working attitude tt no one wan to work with me??? am i?? prehaps i really nt a good leader... prehaps i am nt a good player too...prehaps i am not good in managing stuffs...can anyone tell me???? i really feel like crying now.. but yet.. i dunno y i wan to cry... can anyone provide me the reason???
P.S to all my readers of this blog.. hope tt u all will nt get shocked of my post.. is juz me feeling v down.. and vent my feeling on this post.. dun worry abt me.. i will be fine after i finish this post and calm down a while...
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